Kaotic Existence

ill be the one who kneels before the dreams i wanted. I’m counting ufo’s. At this moment i am happy, I’ma pull out my knife or rifle I’m a polite psycho, its a full out cycle Of a trifle life, cops can suck my cock if they don’t like us I hang around prospects strikers bikers. its a long way down, to the place we started from. Concrete barn. This world will never be what i expected, I will not leave alone. Dont judge me on who i was, but for who i am now. I would rather be hated for who i am. then loved for what im not. My past was ruff. life is throwin me it’s hand. people say the dumbest shit. do you practice being vague. It like staring at the sun too long. i like squeezing lemon juice in your eye. I fight dirty. Sticks and stones cant break my bones, but your words will kill me. i hate shaving. i think god is a a fairy tale created for adults with no will power of their own. Ill put your head in the toilet till i get all the shit out of your brain,. what are you talking about. Swamp water. heavey beats. and loud bass. you think your shit dont stink. this is so random. if your reading this, your a retard. but im sure you know that already. celebrate holidays of self hatred. I hate my birthday. and Christmas, why dose everybody want to kick my ass. i always been the kind to get along. Its always on my dime. i want to get high. I drive way to fast. ill die driving. my phone is all most dead. Cowboys rapping. wow. im not that bright, but light turn on somtimes. there is someone i like. cock rock. rum and coke. may snowboarding. layer cake. i like your style. the lights are dim, its dark outside. could never be your enemy. ill watch the world tumble down. constellation of frustration. Step away from the window. who am i to think i could. Me, myself, and i, Myself and me dont really like I. that just gave me a great idea. your still a retard. amd you still know it.

Ok i know i haven’t really been posting anything, as often as use too. It not that i have lost interest with my site. Like i do with alot of things i start. Just that there has been thing’s preoccupying my time. I haven’t been watching tv at all. the last month i have been kind of addicted to Stargate. watching about 5 episodes a night. sometimes only 2 or 1. And there is my photography. still learning alot. figuring out what makes a good shot. how to set it up.
Decided i need a speed light. so ill pick on up in a month or so. depends. There’s work. working alot. New people’s in my life. people i like. and would rather do things with then then sit in my house. playing on my computers. watching tv. but yeah. For me to know and none of you too find out.

the hits are still in the hundreads a day. at about 75% new ip’s so thats kinda cool. there was one that came almost ten times. so i blocked.. i dont like stalkers. well yeah i do, who am i kidding. and more hate mail. keep em coming people i feel famous, when i get 50 good ones. ill post them all onto their own page.

but i dont know. i need to go shower. peace.

You fucking heard me. snowboarding in the month of MAY What a god damn beautiful day. Sunshine. It snowed all day long. The sun was out. not very busy.. Even had AC-DC playing in the background. yeah ac dc was there. But they butchered it all.. kinda sad. but was still cool. Kinda wish i took my camera. but i did. didn’t think it was a good idea. but still should have. o well. its all stapled in my memory.

This guy made my day

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hey u sick fuck…….ur fuckin tweaked in the head man…..ur such a weirdo u need to climb under a rock and not leave

I forgot. walking through the tunnel at the zoo. n there was a lil kid with his mom and dad and someone else. he says

Kid- mom. when i grow up.
Mom- yeah what??
kid- im going to die.

i burst out laughing. it was hilarious

I’ll be the one to protect you from your enemies and all your demons
I’ll be the one to protect you from a will to survive and a voice of reason
I’ll be the one to protect you from your enemies and your choices son
They’re one in the same, I must isolate you…
Isolate and save you from yourself …

I wanna get psycho,
Run you little bitch!
I want your power glowing, juicy flowing, red hot
Meaning of Life
It’s not enough to have a little taste,
I want the whole damn thing
Now can you dig it.
Need to get Psycho,
Wanna hear you say it
Say you want it, Need it
Don’t wanna wait until we finish the show
It’s not enough, you hunger for more
You’re one twisted little fuck
and now you wanna get psycho with me.

I wanna get psycho,
Scratch my itch,
Give me your power glowin’, Juicy flowin’, Red Hot
Meaning of Life
It’s not enough to have a little piece
I want the whole damn thing
Now can you dig it
Need to get psycho
Wanna hear you scream
Tell me to take you, scare you, fuck you.
After we finish the show
It’s not enough, You listening Whore?
You’re one twisted little fuck
And now you wanna get psycho with me.

I can feel your blood,
Pumpin’ through my veins,
Spillin’ on my soul,
and now the hunger is getting bigger,
Come a little closer now, Pretentious Whore
and pull my trigger,
Free the violence that is building in me
I see no end of the ride, Murder, Suicide, is how I’ve beenfeeling lately.
Come a little closer now pretentious whore,
I’m reeling with the feeling that I can’t ignore,
(repeat above x3)
and the need to get Psycho is not a question to me.

Damn it. when i was in calgary we went and walked down 17st. its kinda like whyte ave but shorter. We walked into “watch it” my drug store. watches sunglasses hats,belts and wallets. We walked in. within 2 min i found 4 watches i liked, had to run out. …. So i checked my mail today the fuckin sent me a catalog . and the online store. there goes my credit cards.

Why cant i trust people…. why dose everyone have a alternative motive

I wanna run there…..

So i have been tossing the idea of a new Car back and forth. Im still debating it. Im not quite sure if i want to be paying two truck insurance payment.s and GAS at a 112.9 its kinda crazy.
But on the other hand. i would really like to have somthing that i dont have to use for work. And to be able to pack 3-4 friend in and go snowboarding. or mysel and just beable to sleep in the back. The thought of being able to ride in somthing and not get dirty when i get it. The only thing stoping me from getting it now is my insurance. for what i pay on my truck . and what i would be paying on the NITRO. would be outrageous. Not saying i cant swing it. its just the thought of spending that much money on somthing. Ill but it out right but. the insurance. damn . I dunno. im going to think about it for a little bit longer. maybe go test drive one too see if i like how a DODGE rides. if you know me. i like ford.. but ford only makes good trucks.

From now on. i am going to try and post at least on photo a day. or maybe 4 a week.

Im planning a 12 day trip to vancover. Me and my bike,. and witch ever truck i have near the beginning of july. We will see. but yeah. i dont know. im tired might goto bed. PEACE